==| reality of dreams |==

2007-12-07T20:47:00.000+08:00

it has been weeks since i etched some of my thoughts.

_____

recently, im just too busy piaing for my studies
(this time, it's serious!)
i hardly had any rest since the start of november.
feels quite sianz to see so mani of my friends having fun out thr when im stuck at hm, and of all things, doing maths!
but i guess i have no choice but to resign to this 'fate' of mine.
i did horribly for promos, after all.
and my maths tuition is so expensive, my mum will always frown whenever he comes. zz
but at least my maths is surely improving now.
and moreover im the maths rep!! (for this yr, hope it's the same for next yr..)
gaaaaaaaah. it's such a disgrace for a maths rep to do terribly in maths.
so many pple said it's illogical. so i seriously had to do smth abt it. LOL

*

just 3 days ago, on tuesday, i could finally get out of home and get a breather.
went to CWP to have lunch, then walked ard, window-shopping with my mum.
and as usual, went to metro again to look if the price tag for Bionicle kits had gone down. however, it was more interesting this time...

my sch has been hosting the metro SIF for some quite some time inside metro stalls, main aim is to get people to donate and help out the children in cambodia.
i finished my 'stunt' in compass pt a few weeks ago, and it's so tiring!!!
so unfair. CWP got chairs for pple to sit, but compass pt got no chairs at ALL!
end up poor me having to stand throughout the day for 5 hrs! grrrrrrrrr.
but that's nt realli impt.

...while going up the escalator frm lv 2 to 3, thr's this gurl at the metro SIF that kept on staring at me. initially though she was my friend or smth, but turns out that it's becuz she saw me in sch before. at least i went back down to lv 2 after browsing thru lv 3 to donate some $. (all same sch mah, so shld help out rite? haha)
then chatted with the 2 girls frm S07: huiyi and fanqin. both also complain that it's very tiring, just like i did weeks ago. lol.

at least i got to make more friends on this trip alone... wonder what awaits me more the next few days...
more maths for sure, but i more i can still find time to do what i have always wanted to do....
like updating this blog =)

2007-11-13T20:58:00.000+08:00

darn, i have been tagged!

Instructions
1. Do the following WITHOUT complaint.
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
4. Start your post with; I have been tagged!

Favourites

Favourite Color: GOLD
Favourite Food: all kinds of food, so long as it is GOOD. dun worry, i'll recommend good ones for everyone =)
Favourite Movie: TRANSFORMERS! wish i had such a car...
Favourite Sport: Floorball
Favourite Day of the Week: Sunday. whole family tgt = FUN. lol
Favourite Season: wad season? since when was there a season? LOL
Favourite Ice Cream: BEN & JERRY'S! it kicks ass!

Currents

Current Mood: over the moon
Current Clothes: gray shirt with an angel on it (hah)and dark green shorts
Current Desktop: very few icons, background is lush green field with dark blue clouds
Current Time: 9:04pm
Current Surroundings: warm. decent noise frm parents and tv. lol
Current Annoyances: left arm hurts from tetanus jab today. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Firsts

First Best Friend: Jeremy from WGPS
First Crush: Primary One (seriously, yes)
First Movie: Aladdin
First Lie: "i am full" LOL
First Music: ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ. like, DUH

Lasts

Last Drink: plain water
Last Car Ride: months ago
Last Crush: *heart breaks*
Last Phone Call: today
Last CD Played: years ago

Have you evers?

Have you ever dated one of your best friend: NO
Have you ever broken the law : jaywalking X infinity
Have you ever been arrested: i am justice. LOL
Have you ever been on TV: somehow i feel like i have been, but i'll say no.
Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: NO

Random 5 things you are good at:
1. Thinking
2. Slacking
3. Eating
4. Building model kits from BIONICLE
5. Talk crap and fight with sister. LOL

4 things you've done today:
1. gone through maths tuition
2. used computer for a long time
3. blogged on this --- ?
4. building more robots in preparation for taking over this world. mwahahahahaha

3 things you can hear right now:
1. TV sounds
2. typing sounds from the keyboard (my old keyboard was far WORSE)
3. thinking of good old times =\

5 People to tag: Ming Da, Wen Rou, Jia Jie, Clement, Yik Cheong
(i still wonder why so few guys have blogs? or is it i'm not in the know again? =\)

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today finally got thru medical checkup.
im ready for OBS!
bring it ON!

-on hiatus from 19th-23rd November-

2007-10-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

so sry for not posting for 1 month.
things are in such a mess

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2 more weeks, and the holidays are here for good.
lets hope they come quick.
cant wait to slack and get away from the madness

decision is made.
but it's dependent on my promo results.
sounds v pessimistic, but i'll of course still wanna pass.
*pray*

heard someone said this, and it strikes deep in my heart:
"people laugh at you because you are unique, you laugh at people because people are normal"

_________________

something must have gone 'wrong' inside my head.
i went on a crazy buying spree... of lego 'Bionicle' toys
(my favourite toys/hobby. unique eh? XD)

spent so much $ that i cant believe it.
but its still better than leaving my extra $ in the drawer to rot and to forget about it.

maybe uploading their pics soon.
nth much to type now, just wish me good luck for PW and chi.
><

i will survive, i will survive~

me, neither darkness nor light, for i am the darkest light.

2007-09-08T22:49:00.000+08:00

i dont know how long i can last.
my hair falls off non-stop.
people abusing me non-stop.
everyone ignoring me non-stop.
it already feels so normal.
what can i do?
has the time realli come for me to stand up and end all the nonsense once and for all?

*******************

i have thought through so long, and realise it's the people around.
for all these years, i have upheld all moral values possible.
i help all in need.
i gave a poor kid money cos he din had enough to top up his ez-link card.
i helped the bookshop people everyday.
i listen to what u all say.
fine.
but i realise people around seem to be worse.

one gets tortured too much, too long, and very soon...

... i must do something.
no more being a slave to all.
i may be silent for so long, but i can think so much more.
but i'm afraid i cant stay like this any longer.
my sister getting kicked out of the house.
she used to suffer the brunt of all the insults.
very soon, once she leaves, i will be taking the insults in her place, 100%.
finally, time for me to stand up to everyone. but it's so long since i did that...
especially since i've been bullied for 10 years,
im glad to even be alive.

dont think i dont know anything.
i know too much.
also another reason why i keep 'silent' -> my mouth that is
so many times, i felt like i couldnt do anything, cos i had no power.
after thinking through it all, to hell with power, who needs it?
it does no good, as i have seen for years.
so many abuse power, i cant stand looking at it anymore.
i finally remember: i am one who truely understand.

6 years ago, i, along with 39 others were saved by a teacher.
we grew up to be the same kind now, united by the same teachings we were imparted.
*heard of people despising my kind years ago.. i just dun get it, we do no wrong nor harm, yet we are despised?*
i feel a sense of urgency to save others now...
shall i save u all, or do otherwise?
i realli dont know.
might help if u all give me some reply or smth,
though my hopes of getting one is so slim.

it happens so often: doing something and facing no obstacles, but it doesnt mean you are right.

2007-08-12T23:00:00.000+08:00

it is 11pm.
still in bad mood over my sickness
cant go tioman, $400 most prob gone to waste =\

the rain is here. it's so cold. i start sleeping too much.
the homework still lingers
and i still cant get myself to finish it all.
sigh, i seriously wish there was one less hmwk or project
it would seriously make me v happy.
on 2nd thought, at least i'm not sick next wk
(next week IS very impt, for those who dunno)

~today's joke of the day~
mum: chicken rice for tonite.
rest: but u're on diet!!
mum: who cares, i almost everyday have porridge for lunch de hor...
me: but u cook and eat so much spaghetti today.. =="
mum: but at least my weight still the same....
rest: so means ur diet FAIL laaaar!
mum:.... and i got lose weight lor, can prove to u now. heh.
*runs off to weighing machine
me: *whisper* she sure still stay at 55kg de.
(btw, i now at a freaking 50kg cos i fall ill T-T)
mum: OMG?! why i gain 0.5kg?!
all: o.O

and that ends it all. we can only blame her if her diet fails =="

2007-07-28T21:32:00.000+08:00

finally.. a good day to slack. i slept for 10 hrs before this, bsaically cos i onli slept 3.5 hrs the day before....

ytd was a long day, with lessons, form 'cher calling my dad up =x...
but realli enjoyed being with my dear later on~
had alot of fun that day =x
sigh, but the stress is still thr

cos by this monday,
i have to finish econs file:
do 6 newspaper articles
and 3 sets of reflections!
grrrrrrr!! nvr knew doing a file could be so mind-taxing...

*me, someone with blood type B+, so unexpected. seems like my family is half-O, half-B. how strange. >_<

2007-07-24T20:47:00.000+08:00

the cursed 'test week' is finally here, and it's frustrating.
it feels like thr no time to study or perpare for the upcoming tests.
i'm serously getting suffocated.
now still mugging for maths....

on a lighter note, ytd had a blood test.
(realised that things on a lighter ote not realli light after all? >_>)
17 yrs and still dunno blood grp. feeling so stupid...
then while taking blood test, doc keep telling me some jokes.
got one on a woman who juz saw needle on table and then fainted. LOL
some pple realli weak sia =\

had a great time with dear today, just wish i could spend more time with her, if not for the darn 'test week'...

unpredictable future? hell yea...

2007-07-22T18:29:00.001+08:00

there realli no time to even slack everyday.
the 'test week' is coming soon...
and i'm not ready =(

now the onli thing that i'm looking forward to is the tioman trip. finally, the 1st time whr i'll be overseas, in august, to study more abt the ecology thr. then, i'll be back juz in time to celebrate my bday (i hope i can >_>). next week is the 'test week' though, whr all the tests come shooting out like an ambush and killing us all. grrrrr. i'm nvr gonna let that happen, not when i almost got killed by mid yr. revenge is mine =)

the weeks may be stressful, but at least my dear is still by my side =)
u have given so much support over the past few days, and i realli appreciate it alot... thank you.
now i feel so much more motivated to kill the promos and tests that are coming up once and for all.

the sky may be dark, but my heart isnt.

2007-07-15T21:18:00.000+08:00

i swore to study. but every minute is taken up by homework.
how am i supposed to study?!
u want me to study when i sleep?!
grrrrrrrr

******

no time to blog.
the homework catches up
and i still cant finish them despite writing non-stop for many hours.
long sotry short: i dun have time to blog le!
if somehow, someday, i do find some time, i'll blog again =\

i cant wait....

2007-07-04T20:41:00.000+08:00

i got 'U' for maths.
woohoo.
but i dun seem sad.
something's terribly wrong. i'll have to take a week 'off' to assess things...

grrr. only hope is now promos.....

2007-06-15T20:42:00.001+08:00

finally, a passport under my name
a true identity to my name
i can finally go overseas! woot. have been waiting to get out of s'pore for a long time....

*****

countdown to the 'OMG!" mid yr exams: 3 more day
and i still like cant get anything into my head.
ahhhhhh!
now i'm realli going back to mug.

and might not be bloggin for 2 wks cos of mid yr.
so dun fret if i look like i suddenly stopped blogging.

wish me gd luck in mid yr exams! =)

2007-06-14T21:20:00.000+08:00

monday:
6B class gatehring.
10 pple.
long time friends.
we meet again.

no pics now, maybe later, still gotta study. zz

just need to know that we had fun! =)

anyway, countdown to mid yr exams: 4 more days!
it's so near!
and i'm not-that-realli prepared!
*panic mode*
sigh
guess the 24-7 curfew was thr for a reason.
no choice sia
time to mug!

********

mum is realli determined to lose weight.
and that means suffering for us.
porridge for lunch ytd, no gd food for the past few days (gd food = ? hmm...)
more like i'm losing weight instead of her.
she's shorter than mi, but much heavier than me.
let's hope she loses the excess weight soon...
i dun wanna lose too much weight; if i do, i'll be dead in no time =(

*straight in love

2007-06-07T22:16:00.000+08:00

one+ wk to exams
alot more hmwk to do
24-7 curfew, again.
everything is so quiet.
wad could be worse? =(

2007-05-31T11:12:00.000+08:00

finally. there's only one more holiday lesson to go thru, and i'm totally free for one wk!
then it's time to study =="
which one sounds better?

just celebrated my best friend's bday ytd!
woohoo!
finally got another chance to eat at sakae.
but we somehow ate lesser than usual.
could be that sushi makes one more full and faster.
i ended up bloated in the end.
not sure abt the rest.
but i do know that we had a good time! =)

now, there's still a lot of homework to do.
chi, chem, maths, the list goes on and on.
argh!
holidays are realli no longer the gd o' days.
it's still the time to study... =="
grrrrr

the sun is out again.

2007-05-27T21:34:00.000+08:00

finally able to go out today and celebrate my dear sister's bday! <3

********

had a super meal set at ah yat's abalone restaurant.
wahahaha. long time since i ate such good food.
ended up with a bloated stomach. yum yum.

then went on a shopping craze with the whole family.
bought a new bag and more delicious stuff from beard papa!
i always liked their cream puffs, but haven ate them for a long time cos i always stuck at home. ^^
the cream puffs will be tmr's breakfast! mwahahaha.....

later on, on the way home, mum and dad suddenly wanna stop by amk hub and shop more.
so we juz went to ntuc and shop and shop and shop like mad!
it went so mad that we forgot about time.
by the time we finish shopping in ntuc alone, it was 8pm.
(note that we arrived at amk at 5pm >_<)

now, at home, juz finished dinner at 10pm T_T, eating fruits, preparing for tmr, and bringing the new bag to sch as well =)
let's hope my legs dun ache tmr...

the world needs a hero

2007-05-22T23:19:00.000+08:00

sigh. life sucks.

i'm still camped here.
no homework done at all
deadlines looming.
the cage remains.
the mobile no longer rings.
i'm as stuck as ever.
i can hardly do anything to move
but i want to move
"want and need?"

life sucks. i must seriously do something.
and never have i been so serious abt this problem which has troubled me for a decade.
that's why life sucks (for me, thankfully not you)
and never have i typed such a true account of hjow i feel right now. sigh
emptiness is.... driving me crazy. i realli need you beside me.

btw, this blog was meant to show reality, so you'll see more interesting things... soon enough.

2007-05-20T22:25:00.000+08:00

the holidays are finally here!!!
but so is the hmwk...

******

now i'm serious
i wanna get out of my house and enjoy life!
go crash schools.
eat delightful food!
be alongside my friends
be alongside her
be the best that i can ever be.

today went to my neighbour's hse for buffet... seems like her daughter's gonna marry.
sigh.. she's still so young, but ah well.. best of luck to her.

and it's still damn hot this week!
argh!
i need air-con!
bring me air-con!
mum's room has air-con, but she like nvr use it lor.
might as well give it to me =P

wait, maybe she's using the air-con now... impossible for anyone to survive in this heat, even during the night! *rushes off*

the skies are black, the rights are there, the feel isnt there. have u noticed anything?

2007-05-17T20:41:00.000+08:00

long time since i blogged....

******

the strees has reched the maximum.
life losing colour
dulling dreams
injured ankle
tired eyes
non-stop working
non-stop playing (wait, which one is correct?)
tired mind
exhausted soul
but luckily, there's...

THE HOLIDAYS <3

time to get break
go barbeque
slack like mad
then work like mad again (stupid mid yr exam T_T)
eat ice-cream in peace
get more sleep
be more energetic
eat more food
train my body (you'll be surprised...)
daydream on the right things

now u realise there are many things u can do.

********

today maths 'cher is on a rage
ytd, half the class pon maths tutorial =X
hope yer get the situation...
the look on his face was scary!
better not mess with teachers next time...
ended up with half the class doing cip as punishment...
*sigh*

i need a break. i need someone

2007-05-14T21:09:00.000+08:00

today is the day.

had chem test at 6pm. thought i was just gonna die. the topics tested were like SO hard... but i got thru it anyway. chhers! hope i can finally get some good results for my next few tests. (failed last chi compo test and bio class test T_T)

and tmr, there's bio test, at 6pm AGAIN! argh! this is insane! there's no time to do anything.

and i'm typing smth now, cos i'm so tired and stressed.
yea, now u know how posts appear.
at least now's the last wk of term 2 for my sch ^^
the others JCs still have one more wk to go

and that means i have time to crash sch in other JCs and disturb the rest! mwahahaha!
*evil grin*

2007-05-08T21:49:00.000+08:00

2nd part of today's posting =)

***************

these few days have been rather scary,
it realli feels like something si wrong somewhere..

1) having multiple dreams in one night?!
and they're all of diff stuff.
all sombre, but i am finally reminded of what COULD happen.
it is horrible, real horrible
and best of all, i rmb the dreams, which dun usually happen.
there is no choice. i have to do smth.
they look too real

2) lagging behind in hmwk!
and sleep too!
imagine me, sitting at classroom, and suddenly, there's a loud 'thud' sound, and i had just fell asleep right under the teacher's nose. and nobody saw it.
sigh, dunno if it's some sickness or not, but...
now i keep having fits that force me to sleep every now and then!
grrr... let's just hope that it's becuz i dun have enuff slp.
speaking of which, after this is finished, i'll just go and have a gd slp.
w/o any insane dreams.

3) i'm not doing well! maybe due to lack of slp also, and internet addiction. sigh. =="

4) enuff of chat! rawr.

2007-05-08T20:48:00.000+08:00

just decided to do some strange tarot card test introduced by my friends, and this is what i got:

You are The Sun

Happiness, Content, Joy.

The meanings for the Sun are fairly simple and consistent.

Young, healthy, new, fresh. The brain is working, things that were muddled come clear, everything falls into place, and everything seems to go your way.

The Sun is ruled by the Sun, of course. This is the light that comes after the long dark night, Apollo to the Moon's Diana. A positive card, it promises you your day in the sun. Glory, gain, triumph, pleasure, truth, success. As the moon symbolized inspiration from the unconscious, from dreams, this card symbolizes discoveries made fully consciousness and wide awake. You have an understanding and enjoyment of science and math, beautifully constructed music, carefully reasoned philosophy. It is a card of intellect, clarity of mind, and feelings of youthful energy.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

everything sounds intersting... *winks*

*****

today was so sianz.
tmr is chem SPA, and i'm not ready XP
the onli thing i rmb today was when a hornet flew into our classroom during the PW lesson....
everyone was like trying to avoid this huge-looking hornet, and it lasted for some time until someone managed to get it out of the classroom.
before i knew it, i also found myself squatting on the floor inn fear... =="
(it wun be so bad if i was not afraid of insects...)

legs still cramping from ytd's 2.4km run... i managed a time below 12 mins.. for the 1st time! =)
onli bad news is... i still cant pas my standing broad jump.
this sucks.
broad jump fail = all fail
get it?
it's so strange..
i can pass pull-up, yet cant pass broad jump!
maybe i shld go jump more everyday. LOL

and the world revolves around this place, a place i always stood.

2007-05-04T22:18:00.000+08:00

wad a tiring week.

barely got thru the napfa test, failing my standing braod jump (but at least can do 3 pull-up!). luckily 2.4km run haven do yet... it's next week?

and today i and the rest had a friendly with the NY floorball pple. even though we lost =X , it was still very fun! and... it also means we have to train much more...

today had CT period on sex education and assembly on debate finals...on sex education...
argh! why all on the same things?
juz hope that i dun get too brainwashed... XP

realli nth much to blog sia... guess i'll stop here.
there shld be more to write on when 2.4km run starts =X
*sleep mode on*

2007-05-02T20:23:00.000+08:00

i'm in a state of loss.
i dunno why, but these few days, i feel like nothing.
wad is happening?
can anyone tell me?

2007-04-27T22:09:00.000+08:00

it's just too busy~~

haven been resting well for these few days.
sleeping at 12am for the last few days
everyone at home is sick (except me =P)
homework never seems to empty out.
prepaid card has onli $1 left.
broadband plan ends today.
no microsoft office in my new com
printer incompatable with new com. (stupid vista...)
-> PI couldnt be printed out

nice lists of probs eh?
let's talk abt the printer thingy 1st...
turns out i shldnt have used vista for my new com.
incompatability with software is killing me.
on thurs, the day PI was supposed to be handed in for gd, i din have a printed copy when i came to sch.
7 hrs before coming to sch on thurs (12am):
"yes! the PI is done! now to print.......... eh? why so long? oh. wth?!"
the printer couldnt process any commands from my new com =="
so thurs end up having to beg my form 'cher to print it for mi, and i was saved at the last min.
anyway, not totally saved though... i think i'll still flunk PI anyway...

i thought the worst was over when i handed in PI.
i was so wrong!
there was PE... and we did dumbbell training!
3kg weight in each hand.
arms tortured by exercises with dumbbells
running on track with dumbbells in hand
3 sets in total.
wad else could be worse?
my arms ached for the whole day, but surprisingly, it was alrite the next day.
perhaps my arms ain that weak after all =X

now on my hp.
$1 left. now i seriously wan a new hp!
i still feel sad for having my last hp stolen T_T
let's hope i can get over it soon...

today's the last day of internet for the hse (if my parents dun wanna renew contract...)
all of us have been bickering over this for the last week...
argh.
and no concrete decision made yet.
i wonder if i can survive w/o iternet. hmmm....

this weekend is the time for me to rest my eyes and do more hmwk T_T
i will strive on! i swear it!!

*and i still miss her

2007-04-23T20:48:00.000+08:00

today was tiring as usual.
all the 'chers gave back 2 test papers as well.
and... the results aint really gd =X

econs: 11/20
phew! at least i din fail; i thought i would =|
looks like i might be able to pass econs after all...
was so shocked to see that i got 0 for 2 qns, and equally shocked to see myself get a 4 mark qn totally correct. LOL

chem: 21.5/30
best score so far for all the tests. hope thr's a better one out thr...
anyway, this test has 5 qns, 4 compulsory, 1 optional. i screwed up the 1st qn totally(6 marks!), so i decided to try qn 5.
qn 5 was so hard, i screwed it up as well, getting only 1/2 mark for the wohle qn 5.
oh well. but at least thr's extra 5 marks for me =)

putting beside all that... thr's PE again! T_T
and.. instead of running, we did sit-up.. training?!
sounds ridiculous, but yea... after all that, i end up with an aching and hungry stomach, plus tired legs....

today was also the voting day. i thought it was gonna take up the whole recess, so when we were released 5 mins before recess [thanks to PE 'cher! =) ], i rushed down a whole serving of tao huay and rush up at the start of recess, onli to realise i could just vote and go! wasted my efforts to be early sia... LOL

the day dragged on with more boring lessons... to 4:30pm! had to eat 4 sweets for the whole day to stay alive! if this goes on, my teeth will rot in no time =_="

oops, no time to complain more, it's homework rushing time!!!

2007-04-21T12:37:00.000+08:00

yawn... finally a good day to rest!

it's always very sianz to see my sis play her PSP infront of me all the time. =="
oh yar, she juz got it this week...
realli envy her sometimes.

and of course, she wun let me play it.
i still got lots of work to do.
especially on my PI (for proj. work), since i decided to re-do it.
grrrr, why must thr be so mani things to do?!
now i'm also feeling the stress.
it's so hard to catch up!
guess i'll realli have to go start working..

and realli sry to those who keep checking my blog for updates, cos there'll be very lil of them =(
i'm too busy!! NNNOOOOOOOOO! T_T

2007-04-17T21:28:00.000+08:00

finally, now got time to write a post...

these few days are... just tiring!
realli tiring!
for a start, ytd's PE was torturing!
all of us did bench training
(have you seen a heavy wooden bench before? u shld rite? that's the thing we had to carry over our heads.)
it was supposed to be done in groups of 5, but 3 of us were left, so we formed a group. the only group to carry that cursed bench with 3 pple.
ouch.
as if it's not enough, we had to do activities and exercises using the bench.
i'm so damn glad that i'm still alive.
other than aching arms, shoulder and head, i'm still fairly alright =X

today, we had more boring lessons! and i couldnt concentrate in class. zzZ
sleepy for maths lecture, chem lecture and bio pract.
reminds mi that we had our mock SPA pract for bio today...
it was so horrible!
cos i din finish it in time. sure going to get a scolding soon. oh well...
then, for PW, all of us were seperated into diff grps for PW proj.
my grp's alrite, but my PI's not.
i got a AE for the PI.
NNNOOOOOOOOO!
looks like i have to start plan B alreadi. sigh...
i nvr thought PW could be so hard yea?

time to pack my pag and watch brainiac! mwahahaha!
to those who are too stressed: go watch it today at 10pm =)

2007-04-13T21:15:00.000+08:00

i'm just too busy for this week!!! to an extent that i cant blog for one whole week.

end results of this week:
1) been thru tests for each subj
no.1 cos it's the worst thing! T_T
i have a feeling i'll not do well for each of the tests...
dunno why, but thr's such a bad feeling.
will be finding out if it's true tmr...

2) new computer!
yes! finally got a new com! at least its stats are 6X faster than my last com, and the monitor's larger now, so it shld run very well, but thr's a lil lag becuz of Vista... argh! and memory also not even 1GB. sigh, gotta use more $ to make it better. other than that, the com is perfect! (to me) mwahahaha! XP

3) practically non-stop exercise!
for those who still dont know, every morning, when i wake up, 1st thing before breakfast, mum forces me to do these:
30 sit-ups
20 push-ups
on the floor.
eek, as if it's bad enuff that my back got no muscles and my spine's not straight =="
oh well, at least now getting used to it.
now, mon and thurs got PE, ewd and thurs got...
floorball training!
i fially got into floorball! woot! it's still my favourite sports for now =)

4) money prob!
this has got to be hilarious.
as the maths rep, i had to collect $ to buy the maths TYS.
and today supposed to buy them, but not enuff $ as expected, since surely got pple forget to bring
so... i end up signing an IOU with the vendor uncle! T_T
my deposit was like... not even close to 50% of the cost of all the books,
and the total cost is like $130++
u can imagine how much i owe the uncle now *sigh*

5) not enuff slp!
been coming home late dun to floorball these days, and also slping late cos of crazy homework load. shall be cathcing up on slp during weekend, but i think i cant catch up much, since the internal clock onli has a max. waking up time of 9am =(

time to get more stuff on com running. so many things, so little time!
life is wonderful?

2007-04-05T22:44:00.000+08:00

nth much interesting today, just more boring lessons...
and insane PE for 1 hr today!!!

summary of today's PE....
we did:
100 jumping jacks for warm-up
3 rounds around the track
push-up practice

3 sets of circuits

1st set of circuit contained
30 push-up
30 crunches
20??? (forgot name) =="
1 round around the track

2nd set:
25, 25, 15, 1

3rd set:
20, 20, 10, 1/2 round

later, had to do extra 150 jumping jacks as punishment for improper PE attire T_T

summary of exercies done:
75 push-up
75 crunches
45???
5.5 rounds arounds the track
250 jumping jacks

nice rite? =="
i think all my muscles will be dead by tmr... *sob*

******

continuation from ytd: the family fight...
... on vitamin and mineral supplements =X

seems like dad got so brainwashed by the company, he's now obsessed with taking them, and possibly harming himself instead. like, taking 10++ pills a day?!
so, the family decided to convince him to stop the 'nonsense'.
and it took hrs of talking, and at the end, he's most probably half-convinced.
lol.
and i din take part in it cos i was busy doing homework.
and i onli take cod liver oil supplement ONLI.
phew.

end of post.
*tired, muz find bed. must sleep. must get toys. o.O must think of h.... zzzzzZ*

2007-04-04T22:47:00.000+08:00

i feel so empty these days.

lessons getting more and more boring...
argh! i cant just permenantly mug like no tmr rite?
*sigh*

finally rented a locker for my own use
and for the 1st time, i realised how hard it is to use the lock.
i had to attempt 3 times before i could open the lock =="
so pple, be prepared to mingle with the lock if u're not used to opening the lockers in PJC. lol

and now, my family is in another war.
over multi-vitamins.
it's so complicated, i think i'll need one night's sleep to comprehend wad just happened... o.O

*shld i go back to RS tmr? hmmm...

2007-04-02T21:27:00.000+08:00

sunday:
rushed throught the whole pile of homework, then had a good feast at Marche's at vivocity. long time since i went to Marche's. pple, if u nvr go thr eat before, then go! XP
the food thr not bad sia, and also got lots of food to choose from.
had dinner for one whole hr.

the things i ate (and drank):
swiss rosti with smoked salmon
one bottle of australian root beer
one ham and mush crepe
one bowl of soup
one bowl of mixed veggie

also bought lots of goodies from candy empire. the shop realli damn huge sia XP
bought like 2 packs of cookies and 2 stick of limited ed. MARS triple X (realli the 1st time i saw that, so i juz bought. lol)i slept onli at 11:30pm lo. not enuff slp, even now *yawn*

***

today:
a whole day of torturing lessons! cos most of them are tutorials ==" zzzzzZ
1st lesson was econs tutorial, and i forgot to do homework.
so end up standing in class =p
at least i still used to doing such stuff. LOL

anyway, 2nd lesson was PE, and we had... to do 69 jumping jacks?!
cos we were late by 1 min and 9 secs, so according to rules from our PE 'cher,
1 sec late = whole class do 1 jumping jack
great...
and even have to backtrack and do again a few times we not coordianted >_<
oh well, lucky this rule was not enforced in the 1st PE lesson for the class, cos we were late by 5 mins then. zzzzzZ
anyway, we practised long jump in the sand pit. and it's so hard!
my legs aching all over now =|

after enduring hellish lessons and trying not to sleep, finally reached home and had another great dinner. jiechan finally finished the pic, and it's now in my MSN display pic. go check it if u wan. lol. many thanks!

*yawn* i need more sleep!

light opposes darkness and vice versa. but is it possible for light and darkness to merge one day?

2007-03-30T22:23:00.000+08:00

thursday:
nth much though, just that it's one of the longer days of every week!
lessons end at 4pm, and the last lesson is PE.
combine all that with rain, and things dont look good at all.

the PE lesson was on running! T_T
maybe we wun have any PE lessons whr we can play games for this term.
the good o' days of PAE are over. *sigh*
and it still took place despite the rain...
imagine all of us running with pespiration and rainwater mixture on our skin. >_<
but at least therain cooled me down, and i ran faster than i thought!
finally able to stop failing my 2.4km run.
time to reward myself with ice-cream and more food! lol

*****

today:
at least today was much shorter than ytd.
few lessons, so nth much to say...
but the assembly was quite... interesting?
instead of the usual 1 hr, we had assembly for 2 hrs...
and in the process, the CT period was eaten up
oh well.

in any case, our very 'smart' PJ VP spoke again!
and gave more good advice.
seriously ar, the way he speaks is so knowledgable. lol
5 skills to pick up, 10 advices on personal health... good examples...
i can nvr think of such things thruout my whole life! o.O

1 week of full lessons gone....
and i feel so stressed.
shall now go and slp more today.. haha.

--the blood donation drive is back. compulsory. so the form is filled. but can my blood even make it to help others? it's not... normal =X--

2007-03-26T21:52:00.000+08:00

things seem much better today.

today's lessons were supposed to end at 4:30pm.
4:30pm?!
talk abt monday blues... =="
and 3 tutorials for 3 diff subjects were also supposed to be on today.
sad aint it?
but...

--8am: pricipal said that she was so happy that PJ did well in 'A' levels, so all of us would be released early at 11am.--

woot! great news for me!
i nvr slept well ytd at all.
the scorching heat in the air that is even present at night is killing me!
argh!
how i wish i could go into my mum's room.
oh, the aircon! XP

so in the end, instead of the 6 lessons my class was supposed to have, we ended up having only 2 lessons =)
1st lesson was econs tutorial.
sigh
1st time taking econs, and i'm very confused by the terms. guess it's time to revise alot =|

2nd lesson was... PE!
well, at least it wasnt CL or smth...
i finally beat my own 2.4km running record with a time of 12:20!
well, it's just average, but for me, it's very good, considered i barely passed my 2.4km all the time =)

after that, 30 mins of recess and time to get out of PJ!
as usual, went with jeremy and co to eat at lot 1.
food thr exp, but what can i do? i have to eat after all rite? =|
these days, it's harder for me to save $.
argh, and that means taking ages to get myself a new hp.
shucks. =(

tmr's timetable is quite packed too.
and i dun think thr's another early release tmr...

somebody do smth! the heat is killing me!!

2007-03-24T23:08:00.000+08:00

so much to write, but so little time! T_T

anyway, my new class seems good.
22 girls, 5 guys in all.
quite unbalanced, like some of my friends say, but oh well...
fate is life, and life is fate XP

and so much has happened this week.
1st, i have to pay so much for so many things now...
H1 chi txtbk, electronic dictionary...
i see my $ flying away T_T

then, my hp got stolen.
great.
and i lived for 2 days w/o one before i was given the old rotten one i used to have.
who cared if it was rotten, i still used it anyway.
it's like... i nvr expected myself to go insane cos i cant use hp for two days. =="

guess i'll continue tmr... no time!

*face the fear and live it. then u see wad happens...

2007-03-19T21:08:00.000+08:00

i knew something was gonna go awry.
maybe that was why i could never sleep well for a week.

in my new class, i onli know 1 person from the class list that i saw in the morning.
great.
so i wasnt wad i thought initially.
that i would not get the subj combi of my choice.
instead, i was separated from almost all of my friends.
oh well. life is like that.

the strange thing abt my class is that there are more girls than boys in my class.
well, very true.
20 girls and 6 boys in the class.
wad do u think? XP
and our new CT teacher was then joking abt boys not brave enough to take bio.
o.O
is that true? huh, maybe i dunno cos i like bio. lol

as usual, mass lecture week. i thought it was gonna be like PAE, but i was so wrong.
they alreadi continued teaching maths today! T_T

*****

tmr, as i wake up for another long day, it's time to ask myself:
am i ready?

life is u. u decide fate. so what is realli life?

2007-03-18T22:33:00.000+08:00

great.
i happily tried to destress for 1 week.
and i failed miserably.

this week is just crap!!
it's so bored to stay at home, yet i have no idea where i wanna go to.
and i haven packed my bag yet.
OH NO! =="

anyway, i was so glad to hear that my mum was gonna work again.
until she said:
"i think i work 3 days 1st, then i'll quit"

O.O
wtf?

then "i dun like the job liao... but have to work 3 days 1st then can get some $"
LOL!
turns out that she's working in a restaurant, and realised that the pple thr cook veggies w/o washing them.
......
mum surely gonna get a bad record for being picky in jobs =X

anyway, tmr sch starts again!
a new class, more mass lectures, more crap tmr (can predict >_<) and more chaos.
so glad that thr's only all this..
i think i'll not used used to sch for a few more days again...

'nuff said. time to pack up!

**when i walk alone, things feel right. but i know things are not right.

2007-03-13T22:27:00.000+08:00

apologies, but i dun think i can blog much for the next few days.
every day of the 1 wk holiday sucks.

when she doesnt work, everyday becomes hell =="
switching on the com brings mi even more hell *faint*

2007-03-08T21:39:00.000+08:00

2nd day of O2

********

today was so much better than last time. the enthusiasm i saw in january during O1 is now almost back! =) hope it comes back by day 4.

why din i say day 3? cos day 3 onli has this leadership training thingy that costed everyone $42 each! so ex sia...

anyway, the morning for today was boring again... cos there were more talks.
but at least all the talks ended today, so there will be no more talks! woot.
now everything is starting to heat up in PJC...

i shall talk oonli on the highlights for today, cos there's no time! argh. maybe i shld start typing earlier next time...

the 1st thing we had was clan time, then the practice for fun dance.
luckily i did the fun dance during PAE, but i still forgot some steps.
oh well, they were rectified today.
i was surprised that everyone did so well for the fun dance. the practice was finished much faster than the time during PAE. =)

then, there was the station games. they were totally awesome! all the games we played were wet games. now u know why XP
but strangely, i nvr realli got wet =X
maybe i was lucky.
and at the part where we had to crawl across a field with mud, my shirt was alrite, cos i used my arms to crawl. lol

then, the fun realli started during the war games. we had a water bomb galore! the objective was to destroy each clan's temporary plag, made out of newspapers by using water bombs.
countless water bombs were flying around, and inevitably, i was hit by a few water bombs and realli got wet. butat least i managed to throw a few water bombs as well and realli thoroughly enjoyed myself out thr.

and by the time i'm home, i'm even more tired than ytd. i wonder how i can still be typing... zzzzzzZ

2007-03-07T21:22:00.000+08:00

-the 1st day of orientation 2 for all JCs-

*****

today was quite strange.
how shld i say it?
i went back to PJC to report as usual (since i was posted back thr), and was like trying to find some of my classmates.
then, i rmb that some of them have been posted to other JCs.
*sob*
now i realli miss them.
oh well, i still gotta move on...

seemed like i arrived too early.... hardly anyone thr when i arrived.
but then, i saw more and more ex-riversidians coming in later.
10, then 20
30
maybe 40!
wow.
thr were so few from the same sch as i was during PAE.
now, there're so many.
i was like "why so mani friends?" LOL
but i also saw some unexpectted faces. perhaps it's due to the 'o' level results again =|

anyway, 2 of my classmates from last yr also in the same OG grp as i am...
wad a coincidence yea? lol
melissa, eugene and mi. and as usual, eugene goes back to his old ways of teasing me. sigh...
if u see this, then u shld know that it's time u zip your mouth. lmao.

anyway, today's O2 (Orientation 2) was quite boring.
maybe it's becuz O2 is hosted by J1s from PAE this time.
i still love O1 better, cos pple were so much more enthu then.
now, today, the pple around are like so dead.
but at least my OG grp not that bad. =)
all good pple. lol. but not very enthu also...

1/4 of today was spent on the same talks i went thru for PAE. so boring!
almost fell asleep =p
it felt like the talks lasted a whole day...
later on, we had a clan meeting.
even with 5 (or was it 6) grp together, we could hardly cheer.
i think it's becuz today is the 1st day after all.
even i dun feel like cheering... =(

after that, we did the same mass dance for PAE. even though it's the same, but i still forgot quite a few steps.
seems like my memory still fails me.
anyway, all of us finished it much faster than before, which was gd.
but i still like fun dance more than mass dance anyway XP
anyone who wants to see both dances, i may dance for u all, but provided i still rmb how to. LOL

then there were performances from each clan, as well as a skit on the main story for the orientation.
i guess this was the only intersting thing for today >_<
i admit that the OGLs danced very well. haha
then i onli reached home near 8pm. *yawn*

gonna slp early today, cos O2 lasts for 4 days! omg! XP

2007-03-06T21:40:00.000+08:00

today is the fateful day, the day we shall know our posting results.

***

i woke up at 7:30am today...
by 7:50am, was online on MSN and alreadi all set to wait for the results to come out, when...

"i got posted into NYJC!"

i was like... 'wth?'
then... "results out at 7:30am ar =p"
=="

anyway, i'm staying at PJC, science stream.
guess i'll be meeting quite a few old friends tmr...
hope to see you all thr! and dun be late. lol
for the whole morning, i alreadi had some pple crying their hearts out over not being able to enter their desired choice of JC. guess they can onli appeal to save themselves. and it's a very bad feeling. i can testify >_<
for those who still dun know, i was enrolled into PJC arts stream for some unknown reason, and had to fight my way thru to the science stream.
sigh, let bygones be bygones.

-and also, heard that IJC still had lessons...
i was like omg... how can still have sch today?!
it's such a impt day for all JC1s...-

anyway, i spend the whole day chatting online and reading books, as well as break the record for the longest time spent using my fingers on a keyboard. i typed for almost 10 hrs today. lol
now my eyes hurt man....
maybe that's how i got such bad myopia in the 1st place =="

to everyone: good luck in wadever JC/poly/ITE you're in. u can do it!

lastly, some pics that i promised ytd...
1) my MP3 player =)
i love it lots, but a lil less after today, when my mum tried to remove the earphone from my ear to see my MP3 player and managed to strangle me with the earphone wire. dun ask how =|

2) my poor scratched handphone =(

my agenda for tmr:
1) meet old friends
2) make new friends
3) enjoy
4) do some ownage o.O

gd nite everyone, and rmb to have fun tmr =)

2007-03-05T20:02:00.000+08:00

1st thing before i say anything else:
good luck to all my friends for tmr's posting results! =)
and to my class 07S05: we will nvr fade into history; we shall always be remembered!

today was such a sombre day...
everyone looked so dead
even the 'chers werent happy
and why?
becuz today is the last day of PAE! *sob*
i miss all my 'chers alot, especially my CL 'cher!
*the good 'cher that lets us watch movies!!11 ^^*
and the chem 'cher for teaching so well...
even showed us how to 'make' a 'volcano' for the last demo our class would ever have...
if i ever stay in PJC, i want the same old teachers!!

the class took countless photos of everyone in my class.
seems like i'm not the onli one suffering from the 'seperation syndrome'...
it's so sad that some of them are leaving *sigh*
but at least most are still staying at PJC.
as for mi? hmmm
i cant tell until tmr, 8am. LOL
still split btw AJ and PJ.

anyway, now i'm enjoying myself with my new MP3 player! XP
juz got it ytd, and it was so unexpected man...
i woke up ytd in a daze...
fumbled around the table to find my specs, but caught hold of a box instead.
turns out if a Creative MuVo V100 1GB, and my good o' sis gave it to mi as a gift of sorts! =D
and just 2 weeks ago, i also got a new handphone!
(althought my dad gave it to mi one wk after he used it cos he didnt like it o.O, and the phone was alreadi full of scratches. wonder wad he did with it...)

maybe i'll upload pics of the handphone and MP3 player soon.
for now, time to slack and chat! =P