Friday, December 7, 2007
it has been weeks since i etched some of my thoughts.
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recently, im just too busy piaing for my studies
(this time, it's serious!)
i hardly had any rest since the start of november.
feels quite sianz to see so mani of my friends having fun out thr when im stuck at hm, and of all things, doing maths!
but i guess i have no choice but to resign to this 'fate' of mine.
i did horribly for promos, after all.
and my maths tuition is so expensive, my mum will always frown whenever he comes. zz
but at least my maths is surely improving now.
and moreover im the maths rep!! (for this yr, hope it's the same for next yr..)
gaaaaaaaah. it's such a disgrace for a maths rep to do terribly in maths.
so many pple said it's illogical. so i seriously had to do smth abt it. LOL
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just 3 days ago, on tuesday, i could finally get out of home and get a breather.
went to CWP to have lunch, then walked ard, window-shopping with my mum.
and as usual, went to metro again to look if the price tag for Bionicle kits had gone down. however, it was more interesting this time...
my sch has been hosting the metro SIF for some quite some time inside metro stalls, main aim is to get people to donate and help out the children in cambodia.
i finished my 'stunt' in compass pt a few weeks ago, and it's so tiring!!!
so unfair. CWP got chairs for pple to sit, but compass pt got no chairs at ALL!
end up poor me having to stand throughout the day for 5 hrs! grrrrrrrrr.
but that's nt realli impt.
...while going up the escalator frm lv 2 to 3, thr's this gurl at the metro SIF that kept on staring at me. initially though she was my friend or smth, but turns out that it's becuz she saw me in sch before. at least i went back down to lv 2 after browsing thru lv 3 to donate some $. (all same sch mah, so shld help out rite? haha)
then chatted with the 2 girls frm S07: huiyi and fanqin. both also complain that it's very tiring, just like i did weeks ago. lol.
at least i got to make more friends on this trip alone... wonder what awaits me more the next few days...
more maths for sure, but i more i can still find time to do what i have always wanted to do....
like updating this blog =)
it got me home
8:47 PM
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
darn, i have been tagged!
Instructions
1. Do the following WITHOUT complaint.
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
4. Start your post with; I have been tagged!
Favourites
Favourite Color: GOLD
Favourite Food: all kinds of food, so long as it is GOOD. dun worry, i'll recommend good ones for everyone =)
Favourite Movie: TRANSFORMERS! wish i had such a car...
Favourite Sport: Floorball
Favourite Day of the Week: Sunday. whole family tgt = FUN. lol
Favourite Season: wad season? since when was there a season? LOL
Favourite Ice Cream: BEN & JERRY'S! it kicks ass!
Currents
Current Mood: over the moon
Current Clothes: gray shirt with an angel on it (hah)and dark green shorts
Current Desktop: very few icons, background is lush green field with dark blue clouds
Current Time: 9:04pm
Current Surroundings: warm. decent noise frm parents and tv. lol
Current Annoyances: left arm hurts from tetanus jab today. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Firsts
First Best Friend: Jeremy from WGPS
First Crush: Primary One (seriously, yes)
First Movie: Aladdin
First Lie: "i am full" LOL
First Music: ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ. like, DUH
Lasts
Last Drink: plain water
Last Car Ride: months ago
Last Crush: *heart breaks*
Last Phone Call: today
Last CD Played: years ago
Have you evers?
Have you ever dated one of your best friend: NO
Have you ever broken the law : jaywalking X infinity
Have you ever been arrested: i am justice. LOL
Have you ever been on TV: somehow i feel like i have been, but i'll say no.
Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: NO
Random 5 things you are good at:
1. Thinking
2. Slacking
3. Eating
4. Building model kits from BIONICLE
5. Talk crap and fight with sister. LOL
4 things you've done today:
1. gone through maths tuition
2. used computer for a long time
3. blogged on this --- ?
4. building more robots in preparation for taking over this world. mwahahahahaha
3 things you can hear right now:
1. TV sounds
2. typing sounds from the keyboard (my old keyboard was far WORSE)
3. thinking of good old times =\
5 People to tag: Ming Da, Wen Rou, Jia Jie, Clement, Yik Cheong
(i still wonder why so few guys have blogs? or is it i'm not in the know again? =\)
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today finally got thru medical checkup.
im ready for OBS!
bring it ON!
-on hiatus from 19th-23rd November-
it got me home
8:58 PM
Thursday, October 11, 2007
so sry for not posting for 1 month.
things are in such a mess
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2 more weeks, and the holidays are here for good.
lets hope they come quick.
cant wait to slack and get away from the madness
decision is made.
but it's dependent on my promo results.
sounds v pessimistic, but i'll of course still wanna pass.
*pray*
heard someone said this, and it strikes deep in my heart:
"people laugh at you because you are unique, you laugh at people because people are normal"
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something must have gone 'wrong' inside my head.
i went on a crazy buying spree... of lego 'Bionicle' toys
(my favourite toys/hobby. unique eh? XD)
spent so much $ that i cant believe it.
but its still better than leaving my extra $ in the drawer to rot and to forget about it.
maybe uploading their pics soon.
nth much to type now, just wish me good luck for PW and chi.
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i will survive, i will survive~
me, neither darkness nor light, for i am the darkest light.
it got me home
11:39 PM
Saturday, September 8, 2007
i dont know how long i can last.
my hair falls off non-stop.
people abusing me non-stop.
everyone ignoring me non-stop.
it already feels so normal.
what can i do?
has the time realli come for me to stand up and end all the nonsense once and for all?
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i have thought through so long, and realise it's the people around.
for all these years, i have upheld all moral values possible.
i help all in need.
i gave a poor kid money cos he din had enough to top up his ez-link card.
i helped the bookshop people everyday.
i listen to what u all say.
fine.
but i realise people around seem to be worse.
one gets tortured too much, too long, and very soon...... i must do something.
no more being a slave to all.
i may be silent for so long, but i can think so much more.
but i'm afraid i cant stay like this any longer.
my sister getting kicked out of the house.
she used to suffer the brunt of all the insults.
very soon, once she leaves, i will be taking the insults in her place, 100%.
finally, time for me to stand up to everyone. but it's so long since i did that...
especially since i've been bullied for 10 years,
im glad to even be alive.
dont think i dont know anything.
i know too much.
also another reason why i keep 'silent' -> my mouth that is
so many times, i felt like i couldnt do anything, cos i had no power.
after thinking through it all, to hell with power, who needs it?
it does no good, as i have seen for years.
so many abuse power, i cant stand looking at it anymore.
i finally remember: i am one who truely understand.
6 years ago, i, along with 39 others were saved by a teacher.
we grew up to be the same kind now, united by the same teachings we were imparted.
*heard of people despising my kind years ago.. i just dun get it, we do no wrong nor harm, yet we are despised?*
i feel a sense of urgency to save others now...
shall i save u all, or do otherwise?
i realli dont know.
might help if u all give me some reply or smth,
though my hopes of getting one is so slim.
it happens so often: doing something and facing no obstacles, but it doesnt mean you are right.
it got me home
10:49 PM
Sunday, August 12, 2007
it is 11pm.
still in bad mood over my sickness
cant go tioman, $400 most prob gone to waste =\
the rain is here. it's so cold. i start sleeping too much.
the homework still lingers
and i still cant get myself to finish it all.
sigh, i seriously wish there was one less hmwk or project
it would seriously make me v happy.
on 2nd thought, at least i'm not sick next wk
(next week IS very impt, for those who dunno)
~today's joke of the day~
mum: chicken rice for tonite.
rest: but u're on diet!!
mum: who cares, i almost everyday have porridge for lunch de hor...
me: but u cook and eat so much spaghetti today.. =="
mum: but at least my weight still the same....
rest: so means ur diet FAIL laaaar!
mum:.... and i got lose weight lor, can prove to u now. heh.
*runs off to weighing machine
me: *whisper* she sure still stay at 55kg de.
(btw, i now at a freaking 50kg cos i fall ill T-T)
mum: OMG?! why i gain 0.5kg?!
all: o.O
and that ends it all. we can only blame her if her diet fails =="
it got me home
11:00 PM
Saturday, July 28, 2007
finally.. a good day to slack. i slept for 10 hrs before this, bsaically cos i onli slept 3.5 hrs the day before....
ytd was a long day, with lessons, form 'cher calling my dad up =x...
but realli enjoyed being with my dear later on~
had alot of fun that day =x
sigh, but the stress is still thr
cos by this monday,
i have to finish econs file:
do 6 newspaper articles
and 3 sets of reflections!
grrrrrrr!! nvr knew doing a file could be so mind-taxing...
*me, someone with blood type B+, so unexpected. seems like my family is half-O, half-B. how strange. >_<
it got me home
9:32 PM
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
the cursed 'test week' is finally here, and it's frustrating.
it feels like thr no time to study or perpare for the upcoming tests.
i'm serously getting suffocated.
now still mugging for maths....
on a lighter note, ytd had a blood test.
(realised that things on a lighter ote not realli light after all? >_>)
17 yrs and still dunno blood grp. feeling so stupid...
then while taking blood test, doc keep telling me some jokes.
got one on a woman who juz saw needle on table and then fainted. LOL
some pple realli weak sia =\
had a great time with dear today, just wish i could spend more time with her, if not for the darn 'test week'...
unpredictable future? hell yea...
it got me home
8:47 PM
